Mother Dearest

It's gonna be ok
We're ok
Thank you for listening
I love you

I don't want to be the biggest
I don't want to be the richest
I just wanna make what I'm making
And put my feelings in it
I just want somebody feeling similar
To see it isn't
Hard to fix what's broken
Just open up
Put some meaning in it

I been searching my existence
Seeing reasons to believe in demons
Seasonal feelings is sometimes
Easily the deepest even
When you make it out
I find myself internally deceiving
Telling myself a lie to facilitate what's unappealing

I just need to start and the first steps always the hardest
I might have too much ambition
I might overshoot my target
I see that my mommas crying
Wonder why and did I spark it
Realize that I been caught up all the plans
I never started

I been talking and talking
It turns out options is often
Looking to turn to exhaustion
I face the fire on the way to hell
To turn it to profit
I seen how easy it is
To become a deposit
You turn into what you run from
When you running from your losses

I make my way to the back of the room
And after the classic issue
I'm tasked with attacking the tune
My brain sees comedy in pain
Come back and I'm laughing at you
I'm sorry for passing the blues
I'm asking to package the sadness
After the matter for you

Cuz I know you don't like to dwell on pain
Neither do I
I know you been running from the rain
It's juvenile
Just stand up face the aftermath
I promise pains a passing fad
It's gone before you know it
And you wonder where the actions at

Cuz action's what's been keeping you alive
The actions what's been keeping you alive
The actions what's been keeping you alive
And for a while it's in the night where you been
Fighting for your life

Where you been fighting for your life
Where I been fighting for my life

Where we been fighting for our lives
I can't decide
It's in my mind
Or in reality
In time
I know I'll understand
I'm meant to be another man
I'm meant for something different
From the vision
From the others plans
The other hands
The only way I'll make
Word to my motherland
Cuz I been on a pyramid
Just searching for my brothers and
They can't be found cuz I been lost
I'm clutching close, what mother hands
Me down when I been tossed aside
I'm bouncing back like rubber band
Around my hair to keep it out my eyes
Feel like a running man
Cuz I been working hard
To not move from the place I stay
I feel the ache
From not being able to make
Without mistakes
They try to overtake
And cover up my face
I gotta wait
So I been building patience
Like a doctor say
But in reverse
I wanna keep apple away
Sometimes my phone brings on the hurt
I gotta work
So I can make sure that my family staying paid
Am I insane
For shouldering the weight
Without feeling the burn
I'm going numb cuz I been under pressure
For too much before
From out the floor
Is where I sit and stare
Try getting out the door
But I been stuck
With memories I been trying hard to ignore
I been wiping tears off my beard
I wash my face to face the lord
The layers of my prayers been unraveling
Just like the chord
Of the hand made wings
That's on Icarus
Flying until I'm worn out
Lying inside the floor now
Timing what I ignore now

We're gonna be ok