Songtexte God's Work - ReMark

Chasing
Chasing anything that would stop my mind from racing
Catastrophizing in the morning, for a couple days
Then I dropped a couple cups and said I'd be okay
Looking at it from the outside it's a benefit
Don't need another day to remind me of my loss of innocence
Thought I was out, but I'm in again
The endless cycle keeps repeating and I'm left here sitting faded thinkin how much I'll be needing when the come down strikes
I stay blinded to reality with all these nights
That keep haunting me and pushing me away from the light
A constant current of spite
I might as well give up on this unwinnable fight
It's hard to stay solid when you've lost your respect
I take a hit or two and watch my heart beat out of my chest
The paranoia's kicking in, everyone is a threat
Constantly answering with words like "I'm okay", but only since the high took over as my sober state
Pretending I don't have a problem with a pokerface
Then drop ten thousand on a poker game
I swear my mind will never be the same
The realization of reality keeps getting closer day by day
I'm holding on by doing anything to escape
And to eliminate surroundings cause I'm full of hate
And with no connection to anyone it's immpossible to navigate
And everything green has turned to grey
And everything keen has turned to pain
Seems things will never be the same yeah

It's three in the morning and I'm blanking out
With zero recollection of my memory I begin to doubt
I pray to god I haven't done something that I'd regret
Hurt a loved one, or lost my savings on a bet
Thoughts begin to spiral sending me into a darker place
Again a suicidal state, reminding me that I will be the one to finally decide my fate
And honestly it's hard to say what's on my mind
The only thing that could save me is an intervention that's divine
So I ought to just escape again, mix the xanax with the vicodin and throw a couple cups in just to spike it with the medicine, I thought I'd never be depedent on again
But perception's change, I guess life will never be the same
never be the same

Wait till time will drown me out
Wait till I'm swept off this drought
Holding on to pain and doubt
Slip inside a vacant route
Wait till time will drown me out
Wait till I'm swept off this drought
Holding on to pain and doubt
Slip inside a vacant route

Time always finds a place
Reminds me how my world went down the drain
Time always finds a place
Reminding me that the things won't be the same
Ever again

Dependance to fix with the plot is rising
Justify it by romantcizing
Excersise the ghost, when I visit all my loved ones down below
Wish that I could feel a thing, a merit, a blink of hope
Instead the only word I hear is no
Instead the only time I want to stay
Is when I take a couple hits right to the face
How the fuck can I even blame myself, only contain myself when I'm off the right pill
Pushing myself against my own will, cause this state ain't a choice
I seek the void, escape avoid, I break the cycle, constnatly I'm leaking soil
Hungover and at a loss of words, forced to show up and perform, but I never learn
I think that is becoming my last concern, from when does the life that we build get this stern
Disturbed by the last words
I guess it's just god's work

Wait till time will drown me out
Wait till I'm swept off this drought
Holding on to pain and doubt
Slip inside a vacant route
Wait till time will drown me out
Wait till I'm swept off this drought
Holding on to pain and doubt
Slip inside a vacant route

Time always finds a place
Reminds me how my world went down the drain
Time always finds a place
Reminding me that the things won't be the same
Ever again
I gave it everything
Time always finds a place
Reminds me how my world went down the drain
I tried everything
Time always finds a place
Reminding me that the things won't be the same
Ever again

Disturbed by the last words
I guess it's just god's work