Songtexte Last Warning - Reed

Because it's beauty in the struggle
There's beauty in the struggle
There's beauty in the struggle

Yeah
If only mama had the fucking abortion
If funds was low, I wish she was able to afford it
This song right here is my last warning
So that, if you find me dead in the morning
You'll know why, I'm so tired of all of these fucking hoes (all of these fucking hoes)
All of these fucking lows (all of these fucking lows)
Maybe God is finally done with me and it's time to go, but I don't know (I don't know)
I got all these thoughts trapped inside
Believing the truth but ends up a lie
Stop looking at me like I'm that guy

I stare in the mirror and I just wanna die
I don't know why I can't feel alive
My head is pounding with the question, "Why?" (why?)
Why am I someone that I don't like?
Yeah, I'm fucking exhausted
Look, I finally lost it
God put a "for sale" sign on my soul and the devil's the one who bought it
I can't even breathe right
I'm having trouble tryna sleep at night
Cause I keep getting visits from my demons and they bite
I'm tryna fight
But I'm giving up (I'm giving up)
I keep feeling stuck (I keep feeling stuck)
I'm thinking God and I's deal is up
Fuck

Damn
Thinking God and I's deal is up (the deal is up)
Fuck

I can't persevere
I just can't think clear
I'm starting to hear
Death is coming near

Maybe I'm wrong (maybe I'm wrong)
But maybe I'm not (maybe I'm not)
I'm just thinking that I keep playing into the devil's plot, uh
So maybe that's where I belong (maybe)
Cause I ain't really that strong (I ain't)
I don't know what's going on but it'd be easier if I was gone
People say that it's selfish
But saying that shit don't help it
I know they have good intentions but I just wanna full send it (for real)
I'm tired of all the weight (I'm tired of all of the weight)
I'm tired of all the snakes (I'm tired of all of the snakes)
I'm tired of all the shit that's in my head and has me staying up late (I'm tired of all of the)
Tryna keep it moving (tryna keep it moving)
But should I even try? (Should I even try?)
Man, y'all can go without me (ya'll can go without me)
I'm used to being left behind (I'm used to being left behind)
"Aye, how you doing man?"
They ask me every time (they ask me every time)
And I always tell 'em that I'm doing fine

When really I stare in the mirror and I just wanna die
I don't know why I can't feel alive
My head is pounding with the question, "Why?" (why?)
Why am I someone that I don't like?
Yeah, I'm fucking exhausted
Look, I finally lost it
God put a "for sale" sign on my soul and the devil's the one who bought it
I can't even breathe right
I'm having trouble tryna sleep at night
Cause I keep getting visits from my demons and they bite
I'm tryna fight
But I'm giving up (but I'm giving up)
I keep feeling stuck (I keep feeling stuck)
I'm thinking God and I's deal is up (I'm thinking God and I's deal is up)
Fuck

I'm thinking God and I's deal is up
Fuck
Yeah

I can't persevere
I just can't think clear
I'm starting to hear
Death is coming near
Death is coming near
Death is coming near

You don't fucking recognize me? Well neither do fuckin' I
I don't fucking recognize me either
Where did you put it?
You wish I was different? So do I!
You fucking hate me? So do I!
Where did you fucking put them? Fuck, where'd you put it?
Where's that fucking suitcase? Where's that fucking suitcase?
Where did you put it?
Where did you put the fucking pills? Where did you put the pills?
Where did you put them mom?

It's crazy how I've moved to so many places, looking for answers
Who am I? (Who am I?)
Where am I from? (Where am I from?)
Why am I like this? (Why am I like this?)
Questions that couldn't be answered through relocation
Although that's what I thought
Throughout my childhood I experienced trauma and pain and grew familiar with its predecessors
Running away was always the solution
Having to get as far away from the pain as I could became routine
And all the places I was introduced to were filled with promises and positive outlooks on life
But that slowly faded
And the pain followed
Took on different forms
And came through different people
And it was eating away at my self-esteem and confidence
I had nowhere to go
Except completing the circle and coming back home