Don't Cry

I was sitting alone in the train on the way back
See those old photos taken with you
Suddenly unstoppable tears and thoughts of you
Those past loves may be irretrievable
Those past were once our most precious memories
Even if I can hug you in a dream, I will try my best
I used to wonder if it was a whim
Your message is a death sentence for me and I
try to avoid it
Avoid you, avoid the friendship we once had
I try to escape this place
It's full of thorns
Too many taboo topics
I try to pull away
Too many emotional blackmail
It's fucking killing me

Left me with another hole in this chest from a bullet
I get up every day, without permission to cry
Because why lament another death in a room
From hospital, what a pain, a cancer to the heart
That kills me every day and they tell me it's not me