Songtexte am i alive? - Ryan Boone

Last you saw me I was doing tragic
Tried to get it back like I had it
Never moving no it's always static
Step into my fears no I've had it
It's bad when I'm numb
It's not funny
I am done with mr. sunny
While I'm walking he's been running
And I think he might become me
Dear myself hit me back
You must be smart
That's so cap
This is only just a fraction of the bad shit that will happen

Am I alive?
When will I die?

Am I alive avoiding what I can't see?
I use my music to escape reality
I wake up twice a night it is challenging
I bet you thinking I'm capping
Well yeah see I don't sleep
Instead of go to bed I play the past inside my head
And wonder why I've made these choices like
God I'm so annoying
So I ask too many questions
Like will my brain get arrested?
And could I become psychotic?
Maybe but it's not my problem cause

Am I alive?
When will I die?
Relapse again
Blood covered white
Keep on mistakes
Don't sleep all night
Am I alive?
When will I die?

Tell my mom I'm sorry when I'm gone
I didn't want to hurt those who I love
But look at what a monster I've become
No I can't run
No I can't run
Tell my mom I'm sorry when I'm gone
I didn't want to hurt those who I love
But look at what a monster I've become
No I can't run
No I can't run

Am I alive?
When will I die?
Relapse again
Blood covered white
Keep on mistakes
Don't sleep all night
Am I alive?
When will I die?