Songtexte So I - StandOut The Beast

I've kept everything inside of me bottled up
For so long swallowed enough pills to kill me a hundred plus
Times in one night a battle the same fight
I been fighting for so long then I realize that it's just life
So as the end comes to the day I
Blaze a blunt to ease the pain that I've obtained along the way
So Why?
Does it feel like I'll never be able to
Live up to the expectations I'm facing I'm aiming to
Other dimensions shape shifting
While contemplating existence
Wondering if it's really worth it the finish
See I mean damn I guess I don't understand
So what's not meant for me is surely some other plan
I keep the grass low there ain't a snake in this yard
Small circle of my closest and no one else it ain't hard
To see I walk around daily with basically only hurt
Surrounded by all the demons that torture me til the dirt
(Trust)

So I just need to let it be known
That I'm coming for your spot at the top taking the throne
But it seems like I'm my own (like I'm my own)
Worst enemy this Hennessy keeps me inside my zone
Thrown To the fishes this is sink or swim
And they hoping that I'd drown now that I'm out but I'ma win
StandOut, man I'm always on ten
With this clear in my system I'm Back at it again
Mixing paper with the pen entertaining these deamons
That hide deep inside of me fighting me for no reason
Treason it seems like this is the season
For me to try to make it through and come out still breathing
Believing in something greater than me and
Knowing it's just the music that's keeping my mind free
On a
Daily basis trying to change places
Of a bad life lived to a happier oasis I been
(Blessed)

So I, finally come to the terms
That with the life that I've been leading
Is leaving them bridges burned
In the wake of this destruction formulating a hustle
With my mind on a dime in this grind left me the struggle
I been cursed with since the day of my birth it's
Been a daily mission just trying to leave earth
But the lack of my success from the efforts that I've exerted
Got me feeling like a failure dying
Knowing I'm worthless
And I know, there really ain't no reason for this music
To ever go thru what we went thru and I'm still using
It's a hard day, when having the cards lay
Unfamiliar to the way that'll land me a large pay
(Faith)