Down In The Dumps

Today the ever smoldering fires consume me
Everywhere and nowhere
Burden of resilience is on my back
On my shoulders

Like a vice
Like a wave
Something elusive hits me
I reach out my hand
To cling on whatever I find
Everything slips away from me

Become again the one I was before
When my body wasn't this bag full of disorder
In which anger and anxiety hit harder and harder
I avoided the many traps
The too easy paths
I didn't want
To jump the gun

Today the ever smoldering fires consume me
Everywhere and nowhere
Burden of resilience is on my back
On my shoulders

Like a vice
Like a wave
Something elusive hits me
I reach out my hand
To cling on whatever I find
Everything slips away from me
If I could find the infernal
Machine that drags me in this hole
I would dismantle it, dismantle it
Piece by piece