Songtexte never got her name - Sxdszn

To my surprise
The look I'd saw
Was not contempt
She wants it all

To my surprise
Through everything
Those big green eyes
Remained happy

To my surprise
When you get home
You sit and cry
You feel alone

Could this be true
You faked it all
They call you out
You play it off

And I suppose
You fall apart
When the sun goes down
And the days are gone

You pray to God
You grab the blade
You fuck it up
You feel the same

Nowhere to run
Less place to hide
We're trapped under
The confines of the sky

I feel angry, I feel depressed, I feel however I feel right now
Ok, I don't want to continue feeling this way
Instead of fighting it, what can I do to improve the next moment?