Songtexte Contradicting Thoughts - Taz

Let me be one with the breeze floating away to the trees
Never to turn around fall to my knees answer the question?
Teach you a lesson the lesson is me depression is freed
Destressing it all is a blessing to me
I'm begging like please don't let me fail
Trying to help her to see late night talks
In my bedroom here in my arms, in my head too.
Two times yeah I said two it's okay we'll be laid in the bed soon.
No nightmares, dreams,
Or thoughts just peace knowing that my hearts not stop.
Dying from my thoughts and my mind, I'll ride
I just pray god he can help them stop.
Nah what am I thinkin I've been drinkin' I've been knee deep in the
Bottle sinkin',
Toast to the days when we were all kids
Now we all grown up and times just shrinkin'
I've done grown so fast now I've got these plans and I'm tryna leave
Home so fast,
Hope don't last note don't pass,
Death what I'm needing that solo drag
Cause no more pad.
Days of thinking that I won't wake up and now I want to, oh so bad,
Oh oh man mom says she thinks I'm doing good and I'm just so so glad
Never wanna see myself the way I was again I'm
Glad to be where I am and I know it's not pretend.

Everybody sayin' I can do this everybodys' got faith in the music
I remember thinkin' I was stupid tryna playin down with the cool kids,
Now the cool kids play my shit and the kids I fucked with hate my shit
Tables turned my hate done switched I hate this life and I hate this
Shit they thinkin they know me,
They don't they know what I make don't know that I won't
Give a bitch imma sleep know that I'm woke
And know that I'm coming to put a hole in your throat, yeah