Heroin (Version 4 / Live)

I don't know just where I'm going,
But I'm gonna try for the kingdom if I can,
'Cause it makes me feel like I'm a man
When I put a spike into my vein,
And I'll tell 'ya, things aren't quite the same,
When I'm rushin' on my run,
And I feel just like Jesus' son,
And I guess that I just don't know,
And I guess that I just don't know.
I have made the big decision:
I'm gonna try to nullify my life.
'Cause when the blood begins to flow,
When it shoots up the dropper's neck,
When I'm closing in on death,
And you can't help me now, you guys,
And all you sweet girls with all your sweet talk,
You can all go take a walk.
And I guess that I just don't know,
And I guess that I just don't know.
I wish that I was born a thousand years ago
I wish that I'd sail the darkened seas,
On a great big clipper ship,
Going from this land here to that,
In a sailor's suit and cap,
Away from the big city
Where a man can not be free
Of all of the evils of this town,
And of himself, and those around.
Oh, and I guess that I just don't know.
Oh, and I guess that I just don't know.
Heroin, be the death of me.
Heroin, it's my wife and it's my life,
Because a mainer to my vein
Leads to a center in my head,
And then I'm better off than dead
Because when the smack begins to flow,
I really don't care anymore
About all the Jim-Jim's in this town,
And all the politicians makin' busy sounds,
And everybody puttin' everybody else down,
And all the dead bodies piled up in mounds,
'Cause when the smack begins to flow,
Then I really don't care anymore.
Ah, when the heroin is in my blood,
And that blood is in my head,
Then thank God that I'm as good as dead,
Then thank your God that I'm not aware,
And thank God that I just don't care,
And I guess I just don't know,
And I guess I just don't know.