Nights Like This

Going thru withdrawals like a dope fiend
Your absence from my system kills me slowly
If I ever get it back I might just OD
I start to cry when I'm alone, I hear my soul speak
He treats me coldly
And I deserve it
It's only right for all the people I've been hurting
In my defense, I never meant it on purpose

That's why I hate nights like this
Cause I sit and reminisce
About what could've been
If I made some better choices
Locked up in my room
Going to war with the voices
Tried o speak my mind but it's pointless
I need the antidote to this poison
Or whatever's affecting me

Can I receive a blessing please
Throwing up a prayer like a hail mary
My life is the result of a failed marriage
It kinda fucked me up but I don't blame my parents
Cause they really had they own shit going on
Searching for some answers cus I feel like I've been lost
Dot my T's and cross my I's
For all the lines that I've crossed
They say "At least you're still alive"
But okay, at what cost?
I can only blame myself for it all

Going thru withdrawals like a dope fiend
Your absence from my system kills me slowly
If I ever get it back I might just OD
I start to cry when I'm alone, I hear my soul speak
He treats me coldly
And I deserve it
It's only right for all the people I've been hurting
In my defense, I never meant it on purpose

That's why I hate nights like this
Cause I sit and reminisce
About what could've been
If I made some better choices
Locked up in my room
Going to war with the voices
Try to speak my mind but it's pointless
Looking for the cure to this poison
Or whatever's affecting me
Can I receive a blessing please?

Or some good karma
Deprived of all my feelings
Now my heart starving
Shit is like a movie that i didn't wanna star in
There's a knife in my back
And what's crazy is that I put it there myself
Heart on my sleeve i done ripped it out my chest
I know I'm fucking up but I'm still trying my best
Giving it my all but i ain't got nothing left

Going thru withdrawals like a dope fiend
Your absence from my system kills me slowly
If I ever get it back I might just OD
I start to cry when I'm alone, I hear my soul speak
He treats me coldly
And I deserve it
It's only right for all the people I've been hurting
In my defense, I never meant it on purpose

That's why I hate nights like this
Cause I sit and reminisce
About what could've-

Kobain