Black Sheep

Yeah

I try makin' a change... Yeah
But stay baked as I'm blazin' my days away
I ain't takin' blame, I been layin' awake in a crazy state
Like they're snakin' me face to face
& I ain't ever pray for a saving grace
It's a game I kept makin the same mistakes
To the grave when I'm laid to waste
An' most cats only in it for the cake so dont say we're mates!
From usin' hallucenagens
To abusin' the meds, I was losing my head
But I guess that I'm stupid I'm due for the sesh
Nah fuck that keep movin' ahead
Prove I'm the best and I loom and inpend
Like a nuclear threat like who could forget?
I'm a nuisance I bet they ain't used to me yet
Never grew to forget lemme lose the regret

I've been restin' aside with the stress that I'm hidin
Bet I'll end up in a mental asylum
Bendin' the time like I'm pressin' rewind
Gettin' better widda pen while I rep for the island
Yeah, while the temperatures risin'
Heads in the sky like I'm meant to remind em-
-got me question why
When I'm left widda sign at the end of my life

'Cause im wastin' my days, makin a name
Maybe I'm sane, maybe I'm not, may be deranged
Maybe I've changed, maybe the pot may be to blame
Maybe I'm lost, maybe it played wiv my brain
... Maybe I'm hatin' the game
... Lately I ain't been the same
... Satan awaits in the flame
... Pray to get taken away

It's not that deep, but it's the facts so I rap bleak
Always at the back was the black sheep
Now I gotta get on track like an athlete
All I see is crackfiends in the backstreets
Gettin' jabs like a vacinne
But alas I've been stabbed in the back but the ones that I've loved
When the cunts should of backed me
Stuff it, I'm done widda actin'
I been fucked up so dont @ me

'Cause it ain't that clear where my head is at
Pen and pad like black beard widda treasure map
I jus sat here bet I cracked as the pressure stacked
Better act but the fact is that we met our match
Yeah, won't lie when I write songs
We're the bomb like Diem with a mic on
Got my eyes on the prize cause life is a ride
And it might fly by wheres the time gone
I sat down to remember
When I'd act fowl widda temper
Gettin' smashed out on a bender
In the background like an extra
Now they're back round to befriend ya
Dunno where I'll end up will I'll cross my goals-
-I was on a roll til I lost control
It's not my fault, was shocked I just want to bolt
Like what's the toll? I'd pop nearly cost my soul
Yeah, calm as it gets
But nah he expected an arm n a leg
The drama gets harsher and harsher
Pretend that it ends for a sec then it's startin' again
Pull the heart from my chest
Nah lemme starve to the death I'm a bastard thats partly a mess
It's hard to forget but I'm set to repress it at last
Man it left all the scars in my head

Well that's part of the test
Or karma I guess
Target the benchmark I could bar with the best
Far from a pest I'm a shark and I'm after ya flesh
But they laugh like I'm hardly a threat
Give an ass for the rep!
Nah I don' wanna garner respect, couldn't care for the charts
I'm obsessed wid the art so I vent til' my past'll regress
But it's hard to express got em' askin what's next