Lyrics Contradictions - 1800caleb

You offered to keep me company and yet I just pushed you away
I hoped to find someplace far away where we can run away
Used to duck my momma saying we had church on Sunday
And someday, I'll be the person that you need
I know you don't like me right now because I got this pole on me
You understand? it's just, just to protect you and me
I could toss it right now, but that mean more problems me
You left and closed the door
It makes it hard for me to sleep
Drowning in my own sorrows
I mean what am I to do
I could be anywhere in time
But yet I spend it with you
I could be out committing crimes
But yet, I'm in here with you
So don't hit me with no bullshit
Makes it hard for me to level with you
Countless time again, I gave up my own needs
Trynna figure out what the hell you want from me
Is it money is it weed, or is you trynna set me up
Cause girl, you playing so much games I think I might be giving up

We see
The world sees
I think, you lonely
You need, to be free
Trust me, just get to know me
We see
The world sees
I think, you lonely
You need, to be free
Trust me, just get to know me

It doesn't make sense, to go somewhere far apart
If you didn't want this you could've said it from the start
I could be running wild right now, doing crazy things
Trynna get pussy from every girl I get on Instagram
I coulda disregard your feelings
And not give a damn
But I'm lonely right now
And you ain't never understand
Remembering the days when I told you everything
My brother told me that trust could complicate everything
But I ain't ask you for a wedding ring
that's overwhelming
I'm starting to think, we was better off just yelling
But my point is it feels like you never needed me
You only wanted me, to comfort your own needs.
And my in denial self should've listened to my friends
I fooled myself thinking, that you would stay until the end
I ran circles around my thoughts, and circles around my pen
Gave my heart to you, just for you to leave again

We see
The world sees
I think, you lonely
You need, to be free
Trust me, just get to know me
We see
The world sees
I think, you lonely
You need, to be free
Trust me, just get to know me

But fuck it, I got my money and that's all that I need
Fuck it, I've got my family and they all got me
Fuck it, I got my money and that's all that I need
But fuck it, I've my got family and they all got me