Lyrics Identity - midwxst

I struggle with myself and my identity
The drugs seem to help they my amenity
I said I needed help you were not there for me
You said you were my friend but your an enemy
I struggle with myself and my identity
The drugs seem to help they my amenity
I said I needed help you were not there for me
You said you were my friend but your an enemy

I hide my feelings don't want hurt anyone close
I don't wanna bring you into my mess so it's better you don't know
I know that I might've have messed up but everybody fucks up
Open up my wound even though I know its a deep cut
Holding this shit in but I know enough is enough
Never wanna talk about it never wanna discuss
Fall into this mindset I can't shake it I can't leave
Don't let anyone into my life I think it's bad for me
Keep my thoughts inside my head don't wanna fuck up make a scene
I don't trust a lot of people because I always get deceived
Sick and tired I don't wanna be the nice guy
You hurt me bad so now you're gonna pay a high price
I shoulda seen it coming, coming in my hindsight
I'm losing track of the time look at how time flies
Always seem to forget I always seem to regret
Cutting everyone off don't wanna talk wanna connect
Lipstick on my neck I miss it know I regret
Cigarettes on my lips smell chemicals on my breath
Telling tales of fantasy
Slowly fall into catastrophe
I slowly burn in agony
My tears will fall stain on my tee
You got me in your trance and I can't seem to shake it
No one ever wants to listen keep my mouth closed I won't say shit

I struggle with myself and my identity
The drugs seem to help they my amenity
I said I needed help you were not there for me
You said you were my friend but your an enemy
I struggle with myself and my identity
The drugs seem to help they my amenity
I said I needed help you were not there for me
You said you were my friend but your an enemy

Tell but no one knows
Feel this way don't show
Hold your words don't choke
Keep it in control
Tell but no one knows
Feel this way don't show
Hold your words don't choke
Keep it in control
Scars on my body but I think they are a keepsake
Tryna be nice to everybody everyone wanna be fake
Thankful for my friends and my family know I appreciate
Know that I need help cuz I been trapped inside this bad place
Depression coming in and don't know if it'll stop
Self confidence it comes up and it drops
Don't know if it's worth it's worth the talk
I don't wanna drag you into this at all