Lyrics Understand - AR-AB

It's like success seems so far
Where I'm from the little kids they don't play ball
They want that 8 ball
They got that 8 long
They need this money right now and they don't wait long
And I feel they pain cause I was just there
I had to wear the same sneaks for a fuckin' year
And I ain't get help, nobody gave a shit
We got it from the muscle, nobody gave a shit
I was fourteen tryna get money
The old heads used to come and take shit from me
But they ain't understand I couldn't eat without it
I put my gun to use now I can't sleep without it
I remember nights, it was cold as shit
In an abandoned house with a candle lit
It was me and Murder and my cousin Na
For them 2 niggas I would fuckin' die
Then we met Gold and he gave us hope
He ain't give us money but he gave us coke
That nigga taught me the game from the fuckin' curb
I'd kill for that nigga if he say the word
I said I need an ounce, he said you think it's small
He said you need a house, so nigga go hard
So I took them words and I made it happen
Then we flipped 10 birds tryna make it rappin'
So fuck a lottery tryna hit the jackpot
I get mine out the water in the crack pot
On the back block with a bunch of low life
They tryna come up so they throw dice
Tryna hit a number till they number's called
I done sat 3 summers behind the wall
In the cold cell, gettin' no mail
Facing murder one I got no bail
When my son was born I was in jail
When my brother got shot I was in jail
Man I'm in hell, I wanna go right
I'm at the end of the tunnel but it's no light
All I see is fiends, bunch of broken dreams
People losing hope then they shootin' dope
But I'm tryna cope, I see through the fog
So I'm cuttin' coke, planning for tomorrow
I'm countin' drug money, shit I keep sinnin'
But I keep losing and they keep winnin'
And they keep grinnin' cause they see me broke
So I start shootin' niggas makin' sure I won't
Cause I got 2 kids I gotta look after
But these crackers don't care they throw the book at ya
They'll give you life cause you whip and bite
But this drug money got my family eatin' right
And they don't understand, they ain't from the hood
I never knew what it was like to have it good
I seen my pop break his back for the white man
Then he start sellin' dope to the white man
See I wasn't born with a silver spoon
I seen my pop bag coke in the living room
I seen the sacrifice my mom used to make
When she used to starve but made sure we ate
Man she wouldn't eat just to get a sneak
One of us was sick, man she wouldn't sleep
So I go hard, sellin' coke hard
And they ain't make a way, I had to bogart
So we pop pills and we sip rain
And we get drunk tryna forget the pain
Tryna hide the tears through the weed smoke
And we ain't got shit so we need hope

Gotta throw my pain man
I went from a nigga that was homeless
Livin' in abandoned houses
In jail fighting murders and shootings
Now I'm gettin' this bread and rappin'
I went from negative to positive