Lyrics Character Development - Andrew GO!

Check my phone, no new messages in it
But that's not my business
Where you at my homie? Acting so different
Know you stressing and itching to put a sedative in it
I'ma wait till you finish, learn a lesson, like

My school atmosphere heavy, just like my spirit
Voice of negativity speaking, yeah I hear it
But they talking about some party last week
They was drinking, having sex, smoking weed
No interference, "Just teens having fun"
So why they still got self disdain
Social media keep us up in a mental cage
Status quo look like the way out
Try to fit in where we make many mistakes now
Lost in the game, catching fades, clout chasing
Backstabbing, gossiping, blaming
Nobody gracious in that circle
It really ain't my place, man
I don't belong there, I'm waiting
For the masks to come off everybody faces
We ain't genuine, we don't cover our bases
That's the culture I live in, it's shameful
My homie been real tho, I appreciate it
Thank you for being yourself, never afraid to tell
Me about your mental health, I told you about me as well
You saw me go thru hell, I picked you up when you fell
We had time to breathe when we got out our shell
We let each other see we feel emptiness
Searching for love, that's something no one's gonna give
Told my homegirl, "Life so dark, I'm done with this"
She said "I know it sucks, but try to have fun with it"

Development
Character development
People change, yo that's evident
Thank you for the sentiment

Check my phone, no new messages in it
But that's not my business
Where you at my homie? Acting so different
Know you stressing and itching to put a sedative in it
I'ma wait till you finish, learn a lesson up in it
Check my phone, no new messages in it
But that's not my business
Where you at my homie? Acting so different
Know you stressing and itching to put a sedative in it
I'ma wait till you finish, learn a lesson like

Pain can make people do crazy things
Pain can make your friends change
Or just
Fly away to find their own lanes
Memories of them in my brain
I don't know you anymore
I don't know you anymore
No
Friends come and go
Will I be one of those
People have to leave, do they own things
It ain't my time yet
I just ghost everyone cuz from myself I'm disconnected
Circumstances changed in life
Since then I have a couple questions, take a second
To reflect on my intentions
Assess my depression
I sit with the homies
They dating, I'm not
I'm single, I'm lonely
Look
This girl, I just wanna see her, I just wanna meet up
My road so long, paces I can't keep up
All white Air Force Ones is beat up and creased up
While someone missing out here
It's the leaders, the leaders
Damn

High school
Junior year
Let's go

"The reason why this made me think about you is because
Even now, I know that you won't betray me
You won't do anything to hurt me
You wouldn't"

Reality snatched my dream and then ran
He wanted to scrap, said "Throw me them hands"
Cracked my skull in the ground then said
"Your dreams are gone, you missed your chance"
I guess it's true cuz I failed
It wasn't no clear objective
Been cloudy, that's unexpected
I didn't know my purpose could change directions
Uncontrollably shaking with panic attacks
My heart screaming at my mind, it's getting bad
I been the good guy and that's why I'm last
This is just something I'll never get past
I'm in a loop others just plow through
Wondering what could I really amount to
This is why I ain't around you
Because I question my value