Lyrics Therapy - Atom Bomb

This is my story so I'll tell it
Hear it from the mouth of the horse so I couldn't well it
Everyone was sleeping on Adam like he was jelling
While they claiming that the music he making could never sell it
Had me waiting in the water through a body of lies
Trying to trip a niggas footing planning out his demise
Everything a nigga said claim I need to revise
Said I would never make it anywhere if I was that guy
But it was me

The one standing in the mirror
Me looking back on it now it couldn't be any clearer
I focused on other shit rather keeping true to the mirror
The voices of other people's the only thing I was hearing
I fucked up
Used to blow my money in gut trucks
Ride around the city with my homies and puff puff
Talk about some shit that didn't matter and sure enough
I fell on hard times used to think it was dumb luck but no

Had me surely falling for sure
Me carrying so much weight is what kept my back on the ropes
Getting up was a struggle which everybody enjoyed
But fuck it I will get better that's something I truly know
I'm striving to be the best at what many have never could
While staying true to myself and remembering what is good
Opening up the book to my life the way that I should
And fuck it if you don't like I happen to know its good
It's real

You know the deal
I'm shooting back at them haters with everything that I feel
I popping off all them tags and opening different seals
And savoring just the thought of the quickly approaching meal
I got to eat
Someone that's successful I got to be
The thought of going broke or being a bum is what's haunting me
Ain't to many women I remember that wanted me
So I'm scared of being alone without a family thats honestly

Yeah
Its gets harder than that
I remember there was a time when I thought I was wack
I remember there was a night that I ate out the trash
And I always have tend to struggle with knowing I'm black
This is the problem with being Adam my shit is all in a pile
Waking up in the morning and having trouble to smile
Missing the better part of myself I had as a child
But if I had it here now that shit would just slow me down
Everything has a cost and be certain of who's buying
Knowing that the sword that you swinging is two sided
Everybody's out for their money it breeds violence
So even from your family and friends you got to hide shit
Everybody's scheming man what side are they on
I know people that I've trusted that would fuck me tomorrow
For a imitation copper colored penny that's all
Which is funny what they got it wasn't worth it at all
I've been stashing shinny nickels just in case a nigga burn out
Scared of what could happen and the way my life could turn out
Everybody's working but there's few of us that work out
And if it doesn't they will load them things and bring the hurt out
Even if it does I'm minus any love
I'll never be accepted in this game that's full of thugs
I'm praying to a God that's in the heavens up above
That he showers me with blessing and I pray that that's enough
I don't know

But I'm hoping
Remember all them days that spent in my room moping
Stuck in a depression the hardest to make broken
Every doctor that I visit would only proscribe Motrin
That ain't what I need
Can't you see I bleed
The pain of being strong Is what's brought me to my knees
I dream of being someone know exactly what it means
If you recognize the struggle I bet music's in your genes
For real

And I'm just saying
I'm just saying

It's about time I got myself together

I'm just saying
I'm just saying

It's about time I got myself together

I'm just saying
I'm just saying

It's about time I got myself together

I'm just saying that

It's about time I got myself together
Together
Together
Together

Music is my therapy

Music is my therapy