Lyrics Restless Nights In the Abyss - BRVDY SHVDY

As I hide during the day
And walk the shadows at night
I hate everything I hear
And everything that I see
Depression sinks in deep
I become motionless and bitter
Color fades away into oblivion
These cuts won't scab up

Just a desperate call for help
Want you to find it in you
To love me for me only
And not for the mask I always wear

Uncertainty clouds my mind

Every fucking word coming out of you
Is always untruthful rhetoric
I cannot manage this pressure
To meet your expectations
All of the scars still run deep
Still red from all of the trauma
Now they're freshly open again
Because you keep haunting my dreams

My heart and my mind
Cannot come to a consensus
I want to feel love but I feel hate
The pressure continues to persist

Conflicting feelings take me over
Forevermore

What do I see in you?
Just a lustful urge for blood?
I keep asking these questions
But I relentlessly keep refusing