Lyrics Exposed - BVNE

I've been fucking up
I don't really need to say much
Don't bother with the face cause I'ma ruin all your makeup
See I've been down, been counted out, removed by stretcher
I still don't wanna try but I just hope this can get better
See I'm hopeless, don't wanna wake and make an effort, coping
With my anxieties when I refuse the diagnosis
See I don't want the medication and that makes you angry
But I don't think I'm better, I just don't think it'll change me
Contemplating what I'm facing, 27 had me thinking
The barrel, a .45 and that honestly fucking shakes me
And I'm sorry, I've been waiting to say this
But see I've never been brave enough here to face it

Waiting out the daylight
Picturing the way I
Never really say things right, I know
That I really won't last long
Listen to the last song, feelings getting passed on
Yeah it's cold
Yeah it's all I know
Yeah it's all I know
Yeah it's all I know

I know that I have felt so worthless
I try to make these songs to help me feel I have a purpose
I've mattered to a person but it's hard to see the reach
If my beliefs are fucking empty really what is there to see?
And what is there to be? I really hope that I complete
Another goal that I can seek to put my hopeless soul to sleep
My bones are cold and weak and I cannot provide you warmth
I've sunken in the ocean, found no beacon in the storm
Battle worn, battle tested, but this battle I can't fight
I've grown so fucking tired but I can't sleep in the night
I pray I'll be alright but I've got nothing left to pray to
I'm always in the mirror when I say the words "I hate you"

I'm always in the mirror when I say the words "I hate you"

Waiting out the daylight
Picturing the way I
Never really say things right, I know
That I really won't last long
Listen to the last song, feelings getting passed on
Yeah it's cold
Yeah it's all I know
Yeah it's all I know
Yeah it's all I know