Lyrics The More I Search (The More I Die) - Bettye LaVette

I'm an open book, I ain't got no secrets
My story bleeds poetical lines
For all my deep introspection
It's still my heart that they can't find
They just won't, they just keep on talking
They never doubt the things they do
But as for me, I'm still a mystery
Eluded by the simple truth

In my vain humiliation
I've wondered through shames dog holes
I daunt a new name, assumed me a new nature
Fooling nobody, just creating walls
So many chances I've taken
So many choices I have made
I choose again to take to seek love
God, if it is You, please, let me in

The more I search, the more I die
I wanna feel, I wanna be alive
Am I safe, or am I broken?
Am I healed, or just justified?
The more I search, the more I die

Still, I search to find me a vision
To feel ambition and dream once more
I lost it all, but some folks say I'm lucky
Am I a victim, or did I just close the door?
So here I am, you can take me or leave me
But if you don't mind as you go
Give a little knot for me compassion
For the sake of both our souls

The more I search, the more I die
I wanna feel, I wanna be alive
Am I safe, or am I broken?
Am I healed, or do you think I'm just justified?
The more I search, the more I die
The more I search, the more I die