Lyrics Unorthodox - Big $how

All my life I've wasted
So much time
Cuz I let you decide
Oh no, cuz I let you decide

Used to be scared to be me, look back at it now I'm ashamed
I was so fake, they want me to follow the line,
I tell them that's not how I'm made
Yeah then I made it if they could just look at me now,
I do not know what they would say

They screaming glory to god, yet feeling lonely inside
Filled to the brink with all of these secrets they told me to hide
I got Napoleon's mind, used to I think if only could I
ascend to greatness like Kobe and fly, I want to be liked
but how much can I change, what's meant to be mine

They gonna die for it brodie, quit being silent and lowkey
I feel my time is approaching, spamming these crying emojis like
Tears of joy, now I've got nothing to fear for
Unlimited ideas even more, no point checking who keeping score

These haters hate, but the closest that they
Could ever get to the stage, is on the nosebleeds
Want to pick up the pace, they're moving slowly
Wrong people you chase will leave you lonely

All my life I've wasted, so much time
Cuz I let you decide, oh no, cuz I let you decide

Unorthodixically me, try me I turn to a beast,
Try me I'm burning the streets,
try me I'm lividly racing my winning sensation is building relations and living vacations
I'm tipping the scales onto me

Figured it out don't know how long it takes me
To simmer it down on the brink of escaping
These withering clouds never cease to amaze me
Invisible sounds I've always been chasing

Like shounak_thegoat am I chasing a ghost
What pains me the most to know
Like who am I chasing to show? Who's praying for me anymore
I wanted more followers not what they follow me for
I've realized I'll always need more
Making my music it don't hit the same as before, this I can't simply ignore
The changes my life has for me to keep store
Building perspective has built me the space to look forward
Now my only regret is not understanding what I was doing this for