Lyrics Numb - Camira the Rapper

This is the
End result of when your friends cold
Your enemies become warm
Towards your mental
A blurred picture
Like I don't know what I'm meant for
The blood I've bled is thicker
Than these lines that I have penciled
Or so they say
That's what they're tellin me
One foot in the grave
Face to face with my enemy
But he is I
I am the end of me
A friend to me's the death of me
That's what my thoughts have said to me
They're compelling me
To become a better me
Mass appeal
Turning all your sentiments to requiems
Fuck these meds I'm on
They aren't working see
They're hurting me and certainly
I'm now a different person too
Too many dark days
It's like I'm gonna blow
I'm gon' explode
So you want a show, you've got a show
Don't hit me up to get the scoop
You don't wanna know
Free-falling from the highest heights
Yelling Geronimo
Sometimes I wonder
If I've given up my time for rap
And if I'm fine with that
But this my life in fact
I'm scared I'll blank out at work
See all kinds of black
Take my bosses head off
And they'll find him with his spine detached
But I'm not fine with that
Tryna keep my mind in tact
Tryna be the man my mother raised
And bring her child back
It's so weird
When I episode and leave home
My phone blows up
I start to feel like Cee-Lo
See I need space and time
I'm tryna be alone
But they know space and time
Well it could mean smoke
I'm supposed to be the best for you
I want the best for you
But if you knew my every fucking thought
It's too complex for you
I'm destitute, I'm a mess to you
I'm the death of you
But I'm the one dying
While I'm lying next to you
Man it fucks with you
It's so tough to view
In her eyes it's like
I trusted you but now there's trust issues
I was her hero
But now I'm why she hurts plenty
She wanted Mr Perfect
I thought I was Curt Hennig
I turned menace
I burned bridges and spurned friends
Me and my selfish thoughts in a bubble
Like the world's ended
See all alone is where my best stuff
Manifests, but
I'm trapped in a constant battle
To not forget us
Am I creative enough
In this day dream
To find a million different ways
To tell you that I'm crazy?

Because I'm crazy
I'm fucking crazy, yeah
But maybe you are crazy too
Because I'm crazy
Bitch I'm crazy, yeah
But maybe you are crazy too