Lyrics Dixie - Caskey

You know that I am sorry, Momma
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
Only wanna see you smile
You know that I am sorry, Momma
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
Only wanna see you smile

Yeah, growin' up, wasn't a kid they believed would prosper
Back when Dad was gettin' 'scripts from a crooked doctor
Back when I was readin' 'scripts from the book of vodka
I used to keep a half a zip in my student locker
Older sis was expelled, went to school at Excel
With all the other bad kids, made it hard to excel
I was 15 when Ben taught me how to inhale
Stopped prayin' then 'cause I was used to livin' in hell

Burnt like sage, but I wasn't on the Indian Trail
Before we ever went to jail, was gettin' plenty of bales
Back before your favorite rapper albums' lyrics were stale
I kept my clientele small out of fear they would tell
I used to run with the drug dealers
Felt like they was big brothers
After Pops died, I had to eat, so I skipped supper
Bumper car love, between us, there's a big buffer
Runnin' from your own pain just made your kids suffer

Leavin' my crib, went on a comma chase
Never justified the tears put on my Momma face
I swear she cried for a year straight
Tryna hold this family together
But my hands were like clear tape
Easy to break, straight face
'Cause a smile wasn't easy to fake
And mistakes were a dime a dozen, easy to make
But this pill bottle felt like concrete
It wasn't easy to shake

Sorry, Momma
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
Only wanna see you smile
You know that I am sorry, Momma
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
Only wanna see you smile

I saw the look of fear was overtakin' my Moms
When I signed to Birdman, the studio full of dons
And drugs piled next to the interface intercom
Second guessin' what type of person I would become
She had a skepticism that wasn't easily won
From growin' up in a trailer and gettin' beat like a drum
Alcoholic parents abusin' her like it's fun
They died never even acknowledgin' what they'd done

And then she met my Pops, her fate was already spun
He moved her up out the trailer and that was where they begun
Changed her life, gave her a daughter, then had a son
Vowed to keep her safe, she had nowhere she could run
And then one day, after the smoke had filled up his lungs
He lost half his hand at work in an accident
Got introduced to the OxyContin to numb
Then started gettin' high with my sister
My Mom was done

Realizin' that he had lost it all, he was stunned
The heaviness of his sins was weighin' on him a ton
4:20, I left to school to roll me a blunt
He went upstairs, said his goodbye with a smokin' gun
See me and drugs got such a painful way we entangle
We try to dance 'round with the devil and twist our ankles
I try to take a look at my life from different angles
But seem like everybody I love leave me for angels

For makin' music and havin' fans, I'm more than thankful
I toured 'round the country, got reasons I should be grateful
But every time I did drugs with 'em, I felt shameful
Knowin' this the reason my Momma suffer
Losin' everybody that she love to downers and uppers
Never strong enough to kick it for her, I gotta be tougher
Vowed to never take you through the rain or ever end up the same
Before I die, you gonna be proud of me, mother, I love you

Sorry, Momma
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
Only wanna see you smile
You know that I am sorry, Momma
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
Only wanna see you smile

You know that I am sorry, Momma
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
Only wanna see you smile