Lyrics rock bottom - Christopher Spade

My fucking brain's scrambled up
I can't think right
That's what you call having breakfast in the late night
I've really let myself go, I know my friends can see it
But I try to conceal it
One stroke of relief and my negative thoughts will steal it
Some many questions
That when I find the answers
It hard for me to believe it
Living life is like tryna breathe
While being held underneath the surface
Deep down I know I'll find my purpose
But that get delayed by thoughts of being worthless
I guess I'm still learning about truly what worth is
So use to the darkness
When dawn breaks, I close my curtains
I have these thoughts but I'll never give up
And that's for certain
Yeah, and that's for certain
Yeah, yeah

I'm just stuck in rock bottom
Population zero one
In the land of the forgotten
Too many questions
But not enough answers to solve em
And this is where I'll reside
This is where I'll reside

Yeah
Life in rock bottom
Just isn't making any sense to me
These fake motherfuckers out here
Are trying to get the best of me
Back up on my feet is where I want to be
But these demons that keep haunting me
Are fucking with me tauntingly
Rising above it is my motive
But everyday I be losing focus
And I'm sick and fucking tired of feeling hopeless
I'm so conflicted and broken
But I grew up with this notion
To bottle up my emotions
And continue the motions
Take me back to the times where I would value my priorities
I swear to fucking god I hate my insecurities
I wish I didn't think about this normally
When I'm going through this
I present a smile forcibly
Bruises graze my skin
As I keep chugging along
It's only a matter of time before
I'm free and I can right all of my wrongs, now
Till then I'll be sitting by myself
In my personal rock bottom
Where I seem to belong, now

I'm just stuck in rock bottom
Population zero one
In the land of the forgotten
Too many questions
But not enough answers to solve em
And this is where I'll reside
This is where I'll reside