Lyrics Memories - Colorblind

Holding onto what is left for me
The lights slowly escape the room
The flashing memories
Are leading me to doom
I've tried I swear I've tried
To erase this bitter memory
Looking back, I've seen the truth
I'm so badly broken
This fucking emptiness
Have swallowed me whole
Shit! where will I go?!
Where will I go?!
Knowing that I'm a lost hope
Where will I go?! 2x
Knowing that I'm a lost hope
Where will I go?!
Can I be dreaming
I feel like something is missing
And I can't help myself from screaming
These memories just keep on haunting me
And no matter how hard I've tried they keep on haunting me
It's been years I live without the one thing
That used to lift my heart up
I carry on and on, in these lonely years
Without a peaceful view of your face
Given up on the one feeling
That I've always thought is not real
Cause I remember
I remember that it all started as a glass of water
Mixed with a cold temperature that it turned into a solid ice
And I let it broken in pieces
I let it broken in pieces
Before I threw all the shards away
And let them melt down till I could not mend it back together
It's pathetic I know
To waste it all away and live with regret and
Finding regrets in those memories I tried to forget
I know it's pathetic, so here I am
And here I am
I'm holding onto what is left for me
I'm holding on to a broken hope
Swallowing every pain that I hope I could endure
Then watching you reaching for his hand in a white
Dress along with the crowds throwing smile at you both
I couldn't do anything
I couldn't do anything like I was
Turned into a stone with my mind intact
And talking to myself: "oh my god, what have I done,
How did I get myself into all this, how did I waste it all away,
Maybe I should've guessed it from
The start that this is what I deserved
I've hurt you and you've hurt me
It's what I deserved
Maybe I should've guessed it from
The start that this is what I deserved"
Can I be dreaming
I feel like something is missing
And I can't help myself from screaming
Can I be dreaming
I feel like something is missing
And I can't help myself from screaming