Lyrics even Though I Try - Courtney Parker

I find it funny how a smile can hide a broken heart,
And how the masking of your feelings is a secret art.
Would you have seen it coming? I know she hides it well;
The whole world is really under this girl's tragic spell.
Thinking nothing of the glare in her big brown eyes;
Little do they know, they're a great disguise.
She wakes up, watches the sun rise,
Starts reeling off the bucket loads of sad lies.
"Are you alright?"
"Yes," she replies.
No one can hear the scream of her internal cries.
She thinks there's no hope and no faith left to give.
Feels no reason and no purpose for her soul to live.
How could you take this girl, and make her feel secure?
Then go grab your mates, and make her feel impure?
'Cause now she's damaged forever and her thoughts are stained;
With every memory you gave her you should be ashamed.
Did you like it when you heard her screaming out in pain?
I bet the thought of it, is driving her insane.
One of the worst crimes that you could commit;
And for what? Just for your own selfish benefit.
And now she's thinking, "do I even deserve to live?"
'Cause what you did there is no way she could forgive.
She was so innocent, until that event,
You made an indent, on her presence.
Now she's forced to travel down her life on this path.
Guess you really didn't think of the aftermath.
Was it intentional?
Are you delusional?
Did you understand what you were doing at all?
What a waste of such a precious girl I will admit.
You took advantage of her and now you've ruined it.
And I just hope that one day she will recover;
And a genuine smile she will discover.
Sometimes the outside, it don't mean a thing.
'Cause this girl she's beautiful when you start digging in.
And I'll admit that, there's nothing left to say.
But I promise that everything will be okay.
And just remember that I'm here for you whenever.
It's gonna be that way with us forever.
'Cause you know that I'm never really very far.
And when you hear this song, you'll know who you are.
So I hope you cherish the words that I wrote for you.
And I admire you for everything you've been through.
You are stronger than you'd ever know I promise you,
Just think back at all those awful things, you know it's true.
You're still standing here, healthy and alive,
And if you truly believe I know that you'll survive.