Lyrics Broken Memories - Crucifix_X1

All these broken memories
Fighting back people who wanna vanish me
Drinking back the pain with Hennessy
And I'm dealing with demons endlessly
I'm feeling bad mentally
Then drowning in depression helplessly
Yeah broken memories

You don't know what it's like
So why do I got to deal with all these fucking broken memories?
Let's go

You don't know what is like going from home to home
Not near your own family so you feel all alone
Not near a family where you can call it your own
So when you call them they never pick up the phone
Only call when they need a fucking loan
Never call when there's something wrong
No wonder we don't get along
Only memories I have of you when you were smoking bongs
One bullet to the head then poof I'm gone
I keep digging holes for myself but I come out strong
Always trying to find a place to belong
But arguing back and forth has been a fucking marathon

Broken memories will not be the end of me
Turn that hate into anger about to go on a killing spree
I told you to fuck off so why do you keep on feeling me

Why do you have to come at me so rotten?
Or have you forgotten?
That you need to treat me with caution

Crying myself to sleep is a remedy Don't say you haven't fucked with me mentally
I'm just trying to uphold my fathers legacy
While still trying to find my identity
So fuck all my enemies
I gotta deal with all these broken memories
I have a tendency
To blow up in people's faces when they sing the wrong melody

Demons see me everyday but I try and run away
So I carry a gun with my just in case to kill my sins in different ways
I know I'll end it some day
Lost my dad to cancer
All I got was pain
I want to see him again
Thinking of him stuck in my brain. Put a sedative deep into my veins
So fuck all these broken memories burn it down in flames

All these broken memories
Hoping they aren't the end of me. Because if they are I'll get violent tendencies
Soon to cut out the bad melodies
While losing my energy
Yeah broken memories

These are the broken memories I've heard before
My sister got cancer when I heard the call
I dropped to floor
It rocked my core

But instead of feeling sorry, I got convinced it was very minor
Turns out that bitch was just a liar Liar, liar damn pants on fire

My sister hated me at that point in time
Thought nothing of it, now I write these lines
Apologizing for my own damn lies Now I fight the demons who try to take my life

The reaper watching over me so I can repeat my sins
Now I regret it's grin

Always staring back at me
Laughing at my broken memories
Always draining my damn energy Said these memories won't be the end of me
But now I know I ain't a saint, acting heavenly

I'm a spy of Satan whose creating me
To blatantly

Make peoples wounds fatal
But the sins don't rain down it hails
Only when I know these memories will soon prevail
I'm basically satan's dog chasing his own damn tail

I'm hitting the nail on my own fucking coffin
I know I said to treat me with caution
But I'm only fill with anger when I got no options
The killing spree is only when they stop the watching
Reject me from this world, fill my mind with crosses

But I'm meant to be here, when my music leaves a trail of corpses
Ignore the voices
And ignore the noises
Because my broken memories leaves me voiceless
Fighting my demons keep thinking it's pointless
My anger is dangerous so avoid us

When I mean us I mean my demons and I
Soon to release that it's pointless to cry
But hoping Satan and I will soon divide
Yeah
Broken memories