Lyrics Replay - Cynthia Erivo

I could never have imagined you would fall in love with me
And I can't convince myself that you would never want to leave
Daddy trauma has emasculated all my common sense
So I'm looking through the lens of an impending abandonment
All the voices in my head say I'm not worth the time you've spent
So I search for an escape before you notice your mistake

I wish that I could say
All this mess might go away
I'm a constant work in progress and I can't keep fears at bay
And my mind is like a record setup on auto-replay
Replay (play), replay (play), replay (play), replay
And my mind is like a record setup on auto-replay

I've been guilty of the hero complex, lend a helping hand
But I'm realising now that I've made my own quicksand
And my therapist has told me I'm not any good with help
I'm in lust with independence, I can only blame myself
There's a fear that if my cape is taken, what use am I then?
I'm afraid of being lonely, I can hardly comprehend

I wish that I could say
All this mess might go away
I'm a constant work in progress and I can't keep fears at bay
And my mind is like a record setup on auto-replay
Replay (play), replay (play), replay (play), replay
And my mind is like a record setup on auto-replay

I'm the best overachiever, there's not anyone like me
And you think that was a good thing 'til you're told that's not healthy
You spend every waking hour working hard to write your will
Patiently waiting for validation 'til you're empty and unfulfilled

I wish that I could say
All these feelings go away
I'm a constant work in progress and I can't keep fears at bay
And my mind is like a record setup on auto-replay
Replay (play), replay (play), replay (play), replay
And my mind is like a record setup on auto-replay

Replay (play), replay (play), replay (play), replay
And my mind is like a record setup on auto-replay
Replay (play), replay (play), replay (play), replay
And my mind is like a record setup on auto-replay
Replay (play), replay (play), replay (play), replay
And my mind is like a record setup on auto-replay