Lyrics Help - Deaf Havana

Feeling like I fell by the wayside
And I can't get back up
Turning 31 doesn't feel right
And I still think of
When I was too young to be jaded by anything
But those days are unfamiliar
Now its all done and I've wasted 20 years
I should have chose sleep over staying up
But I'm defenseless
I couldn't find peace in the darkness
So I numb the senses
Falling so deep
Couldn't stop if I wanted to
Who should I believe?
Feeling so weak
Gave up then I lost you
Am I dead or dreaming?
I'm too low to be alone
And my head is an ocean of misery
So call for help or let me go out on my own
Crying out for a lifeline
But I won't hold my breath
I'm hard to be around sometimes
And I won't forget
When I was beat up, broke down and burnt out
You helped me to my feet again
And I was never there when you needed a friend
I'm too low to be alone
And my head is an ocean of misery
So call for help or let me go out on my own
I'm drowning again
Calling for help, please let me in
Try being me
'Cause my head is an ocean of misery
And I'm drowning in defeat