Lyrics My Dreams - Def Davyne

It be nights like this, and times like this, when I done prayed a lot
I can't find my way, so I get faded, down I'm feeling lost
My dreams turn to a nightmare
My dreams turn to a nightmare
My dreams turn to a nightmare

I try to be like Christ, when I'm under a crisis
But I always pay the price, got too much love for my vices
3 strikes then ya gone, I'm ducking thunder and lightening
But if you think that you can see me, that assumption is blinded
Tryna give my children options, why I doubled my prices
So both my son and my daughters, can stay above the horizon
Cuz I know how momma felt when all my brothers were fighting
And every parent's made mistakes, that's even the struggle of Titans

All I ever wanted was a stable and a happy home
Put it all on the table, so no I can't be wrong
A lyrical Zorro, for my people, why I rap my song
But this sorrow, that I borrowed, always tags along

3 baby mommas, one kid each, I love em dearly
In different cities, I can only keep one of 'em near me
Barely drinking still rarely speaking, or seeing clearly
So I pray to God, but sometimes I feel like he can't hear me

It be nights like this, and times like this, when I done prayed a lot
I can't find my way, so I get faded, down I'm feeling lost
My dreams turn to a nightmare
My dreams turn to a nightmare
My dreams turn to a nightmare

I have a nightmare every time I use the wrong pillow
Now that's some first world problem shit
Life is like a bitch with a long dildo
I'm just laughing thru it all like a comic skit
Used to sleep inside my Lincoln thinking God I've had it
But even at my lowest, never talking shit
Jesus took the wheel on autopilot, automatic
Knowing he won't let go, so I can do the opposite

Like a method actor, still playing my part backstage
Only break to pray, but I prefer it that way
Cuz I still feel my feelings I just let em know they can't stay
Why my closest friends think I've never had a bad day

Never wanted fame but look at all the fans I manifested
I came to change, the game, that's why my plan's aggressive
On this level, gotta be a pro, why I'm so damn selective
If you ain't here to help you gotta go... that's the exit

It be nights like this, and times like this, when I done prayed a lot
I can't find my way, so I get faded, down I'm feeling lost
My dreams turn to a nightmare
My dreams turn to a nightmare
My dreams turn to a nightmare

They don't wanna see me run
They just wanna see me fall
Even if I couldn't walk though
Homey I'ma crawl
When it's all, said and done
Bet that I'll be standing tall
#1 spot, coming for the top
I'ma have it all

I been... running on tracks, like Hayward Field, to pay my bills
Fulfilling the dreams, of all of my team, somehow we made 'em real
Done kept it a buck, that never changed, since God he gave me skill
Been way too real, to fake the deal, with flow I slay and kill
Using slang that's ill, ironic though cuz what I say it heals
Push play and chill, forgive the haters cuz they weren't healed
They probably listening to this... feeling jaded still
Too ashamed to kneel, they'd rather run in place, than face a hill

They don't wanna see me run
They just wanna see me fall
Even if I couldn't walk though
Homey I'ma crawl
When it's all, said and done
Bet that I'll be standing tall
#1 spot, coming for the top
I'ma have it all

It be nights like this, and times like this, when I done prayed a lot
I Can't find my way, so I get faded, down I'm feeling lost
My dreams turn to a nightmare
My dreams turn to a nightmare
My dreams turn to a nightmare