Lyrics Becoming Myself - Domo Wilson

People tell me that I'm
Going to hell if I don't change
That liking the same sex is wrong and really kind of strange
That I should find a man and possibly get engaged
Find a father for my son and live holy
Everyday
But they don't understand the pain that comes with those words
Should I listen to the world or should I put myself first
I remember waking up from the pain
And the hurt
Several suicide attempts
Because I didn't know my worth
Popped pills behind the will
My life I was fighting
Thank God I'm alive
Man I was only nineteen
Tried to go to church
But they told me I was wrong
Didn't feel like I belonged
So I took myself home
Anxiety if I die
Will I go to heaven?
Does God love me?
Even though I love women
I remember crying in my car
Wanted to end it all
Then I thought about my future as I let my tears fall
Fastfoward I'm engaged with a son
I learned to love myself
And don't listen to anyone
This is for anyone
Who just doesn't feel supported
Give yourself time
You are freaking loved and so important
And if you want to cry it out
Cry it out
It's okay
No matter if you're
Straight
Bi
Trans
Queer
Or Gay
You are worth and you're beautiful
You're far from the usual
Your life is oh so worth it
Because you are freaking perfect
How you are
Fifteen years old
I wrote my mom a letter
It was National Coming Out day
So I felt a little better
I said if she loves me she will accept me for who I am
So I wrote her a note and left it on her nightstand
I said
"Mommy I love you
Thank you for all you've done
I just want to say I'm Gay
I don't want to hurt anyone
I hope I didn't disappoint you
I hope you don't cry
I hope you still love me
Even though I don't like guys"
I ran away that day
And didn't come back
My mom was calling my phone
Literally back to back
I thought that she was going to hate me
I thought that she was going to curse
I called her up that night and asked her to meet me up at a church
Crying
Tears running down my face
She told me she love me
But it was wrong to feel this way
She told me that I'm young
And I was going through a phase
That I should change my ways and that my life will be okay
Fastfoward I'm engaged with a son
She loves her and my son
She's my supporter
Number one
This is for anyone
Who just doesn't feel supported
Give yourself time
You are freaking loved
And so important
And if you want to cry it out
Cry it out
It's okay
No matter if you're
Straight,
Bi
Trans
Queer
Or Gay
You are worth it
And you're beautiful
You're far from the usual
Your life is oh so worth it
Because you are freaking perfect
How you are
Fastfoward I'm as happy as can be
I'm Gay
And I'm proud
And I can finally be me
This is for anyone
Who just doesn't feel supported
Give yourself time
You are freaking loved and so important
And if you want to cry it out
Cry it out
It's okay
No matter if you're
Straight
Bi
Trans
Queer
Or Gay
You are worth it
And you're beautiful
You're far from the usual
Your life is oh so worth it
Because you are freaking perfect
How you are