Lyrics To Socialize - Elias Omberg

Everybody coming on their visits, be like wow
But after they've been leaving, they are more about the doubt
I am kinda used it, so i just keep it down
But don't you lie to my face, so you can talk behind my back
No that makes me pull out the pen, we're about to explode
Stab me in the back like that, is something to avoid
You know how I get, so please leave me alone
My head is kinda complicated, it is not to be controlled

Every waking day is challenge to me
I'm finding it hard just to be in society
Cause when I'm thinking, I'm beginning to question myself
Every person on the street, i don't they want me well
Getting ready for the worst, just to pass a stranger
Getting mad at myself, when I see that I was never in danger
It's stressful
All I want for myself is that inner peace
Cause then I would act normal, in some way I think

I'm feeling like I'm never gonna get a friend and nobody knows what I'm dealing with inside
I maybe gonna have to go and try something new, cause I do need some friends to Socialize
But what's the point of trying, when I feel like I'm a prisoner to my cell and my very own Mind
I really wanna get out, not to make u proud, but I'm looking for myself and a way to find
If my head was tree, then my mind is a tornado
I just want control, and embrace all my freedom
I know that I'm sick, and maybe need some time yo
Day one, or one day, I guess I'll decide tho
Will the voice in my head, ever let me be alone?
We're all gonna die, didn't say that to spoil
I try to relax, but I overthink some
But I hope I one day will get the taste of some freedom

I know I'm maybe not be that much of an outcast
But I know I'm terrified of all the socials, let me relax
I know my eyes may look some how threatening
But there is a chance of what we think is the same way of thinking
I'm spying around like I'm wanted or some
What is going on, man I'm such a bum
Now you wonder why I stay a lot inside?
Cause outside the door, just scares my mind

If my thoughts starting to run, imma cut off the legs
They are still pushing, tell me who is next?
You are gonna judge me, don't u try to flex
Imma make u leave, just like my cheating ex
Why should I trust, when she was able to cheat?
It's story time u see, go get yourself a seat
Try to push my buttons, try mentos with some coke
It's starting to be messy here, I make paintings with your blood
Now we're coming to point where u call me violent
You don't know my story, so please stay quiet
I don't wanna trust, cause everyone are leaving
You don't get my story, so won't u try this feeling
I know I shouldn't trust her, I was so blind
But tell me now a days, where is real love to find?
I'm quiet in the public, my head is not
Looking in the mirror, I see a person I forgot

I was warned about this, but I didn't listen up
May be my fault, but now I should just stop
Ever since that time, i haven't opened up
Let them see my house, where my life is on top
I haven't let nobody in, and this is why
These trust issues is too much, and now I'm shy
Nobody understands, it's kinda disappointing
In my bedroom is my deepest, and here goes nothing