Lyrics Before the Roses - Eniholla

This is me from the start of the finish
This is me just expressing my feelings
This is me after i tried to kill myself multiple times
For not making a killing
This is me all alone staring up at the ceiling
This me trying to console myself
Me trying to control myself
From breaking things and breaking wrist
That my fist would swell
This is me losing all hoping like I wasn't already broken
This is me before the roses

I just came from the ground up
In the midst of the hate mehn i found love
If i fall then I'll rise up and i'll stand up
Mehn i swear on my life i ain't giving up
So You can put on me

I tell myself it don't matter if I'm number 1
I still learn from the 5th
Learning from everything i have vicariously i live
My pride is always on caps sometimes i put it on shift
My ego is one of the things that got me respect like this
I Been through hell I'm back steady taking em trips
Everybody i had steady move with a hiss
Green snakes under the grass but I'm the goat in this shit
Cos they hide under the fake love but I'm feeding off it

You know what it is like when you show a set people your pain
Then they go ahead and try put you through it again
I mean i got issues but what's the gain of all the hate
Fake love and steady gossip to put dirt on my name
But it's cool how I'm all alone now
With finger pointed at my face
Hate and hurt motivates me
So I'm addicted to the pain
Thinking they could stop me
But they pushing me to be great
Mehn I'm never gonna stop
Until the world knows my name

This is me from the start to the finish
This is me owning up to my feelings
This is me getting back on my feet multiple times
Till i start making a killing
This is me topping charts going up to the ceiling
This me saying i love myself
Trying to control myself
From being cocky
For breaking records with hits
Ladies flashing me tits
My tinted windows open
This is me filled with joy
This is me before the roses
Mehn