Lyrics Twenty 19 - Enkay47

I live my life in a fantasy
I′d give my life for my family
To everybody that's telling me I′ll
Never make it, winning is part of my anatomy
Don't try to battle me
Every time you hating on me you flatter me
Dammit you had to be
The center of my attention, the vanity
It's my reality
Why do you lie to yourself?
Why don′t you take pride in yourself
Why don′t you confide in yourself?
Cuz I don't like dealing with anything
I don′t feel anything
And I take pride in this hell (it's all that I know)
Everybody′s looking for a handout
Sitting with their hands out
Living at their dad's house
Everybody′s getting mad, getting sad now
Go into the classroom, then they pull the mac out
Go into their mind, it's a madhouse
If you wanna feel alive you don't back out
Everybody dies if they laugh now
Who′s gonna laugh at the kid in the back now? *gunshots*
Twenty 19 this is my year
See a dead body in the booth that means I′m here
There ain't another rapper alive that I fear
Looking around at these clowns like am I clear?
Somebody bring me a mic here
I like to sing about nightmares
Cuz ain′t nobody messing with me,
I know that I'm definitely better than anybody you′ll find here
I know I'm deep in the underground
People they think and they wonder how
The fuck that I′m getting this sudden clout
I sold my soul for this fucking house!
I put my heart into everything that I write
Into every lyric you hear me recite
Into every lyric you're hearing my life (you're feeling this right?!)
I know I′ll achieve my goals, imma say it now
There ain′t nobody that can take it, that just ain't allowed
I′m looking up, I'm seeing Davie imma make you proud
I guarantee that I′ll be famous imma make it loud
I know I'll achieve my goals, imma say it now
There ain′t nobody that can take it, that just ain't allowed
I'm looking up, I′m seeing Davie imma make you proud
I guarantee that I′ll be famous imma make it loud
I feel invincible
When I'm inside of my school I′m invisible
I don't like talking with people, it′s typical
I've been dealing with all this shit since middle school
I feel like all of my issues are minuscule
I′m doing this for every kid that's ridiculed
Whether you're beaten mentally or physical
Never accept all the shit that they′ve given you, fight back!
Let me just take a breath... damn,
I need some water real quick...
My throat′s raw... alright, let's get back to this shit
I know you deal with depression
I know that you felt it when I burned confessions
I know that you felt it when I learned my lessons
I know that you′ve dealt the shit that I mention
I'm talking with fans, I can tell they′re affected
I know what you're dealing with, I read my messages
You′re suicidal, you deal with depression
And I dedicated my life just to lessen this
I killed the beat, imma leave this as evidence
Put me in prison, I'm glad I'm arrested
This isn′t the point and this isn′t the precedence
I know that you're at the edge of the precipice
You′re thinking of death and the feeling is desolate
You think if you end it, then you can just rest and
I'm telling now if you do you′re pathetic
I'm telling you now if you do you′ll regret it
Yeah, I know what you're dealing with
I understand if you're feeling if
You′ll never escape what you′re dealing with
You feel like you'll break in a million
Listen to me now if you′re feeling this
I swear to God I'll be real with it
The only way you can escape, is if you face it and deal with it