Lyrics Rosalie Avila - False Serenity

Everything is alright, everything's going fine
Everything in my life don't make sense, but I guess I'm-
Everything is alright, everything's going fine
Everything in my life don't make sense, but I guess I'm-

Wake up every morning to the same old routine
Very tired, and I'm starting to lose sleep
I think I got two hours last night, ooh wee
Let's hope I can function throughout the day
That'd truly be a miracle, because every day I feel droozy
My eyes stay drooping, and I can't carry out my duties
I think my anxiety might have something to do with it
But for now I really need to get to math class, becau- oof, you prick!
"Hahahahaha, bite me, faggot!"
"You're a worthless stain on this planet!"
"Yeah, you got him! Hahahahaha!"
Here we go again
This happens every single day, and I got no defense
This jerk-off is a real douchebag
And I can't even fight back because he's too big
And he said if I ever told anyone, he would kill me
(I'll kill you!)
But I did it once
I went to my principal and told him my problem
He said he would keep an eye on the boy, and he'd watch him
And if he ever saw it going on, he would stop him
And that made me feel safe
Well, really not 'cause it still kept going on and on after that
And the aftermath of every battle scrap left me badder bad
But not as bad and slashed as the slits of my arm
But if anyone ever asked, I just fixate my jaw when I tell them

Everything is alright, everything's going fine
Everything in my life don't make sense, but I guess I'm-
Everything is alright, everything's going fine
Everything in my life don't make sense, but I guess I'm-

Okay, I've been crying out for help
But ain't nobody listen, and I'm lying by myself
I've been lying to myself by denying my bad health
But doing that is easier than writhing in this hell
Oh, and a while ago I had an epiphany
One that I thought would never ever get to me
And it's kinda hard to believe, but it's true
I think that I'm done, I'm through
But I'll level with you, I don't know what to do
I don't want my ugly face plastered over the news
You can argue if you want
You can say that I'm beautiful
But a picture of me shouldn't be framed at my funeral
It's been three months, I've made up my mind
This decision is tough, but I think that it's time
So I write out my note, then get my dad's necktie
Hang it up, say a prayer, kick the chair, then...

It is like bouncing your head against a cement wall to get a school district to adequately Investigate bullying
Suicide is now one of the leading causes of death among young people
Nearly 6,000 took their own lives in 2015
Rosalie Avila was just 13 years old when she took her own life
To their 13-year-old daughter, Rosalie, who died after committing suicide three days ago
After suffering verbal abuse and constant touting by fellow students
She started cutting herself in October, according to her parents
Now, all that remains are pictures and memories
Family says they took these concerns to Mesa V Middle School officials
But nothing was done