Lyrics Control - From Fall to Spring

I don't mind it
I lost control of
Myself there's no love left
I don't mind it
I've waited so long
And now it's all gone
(All gone)

Living in sin
Under your skin
Stab through the layers, feel like a syringe
I'm going in
Leave my imprint
Struggled so much now I'm pulling the pin
I am so done with the hatred
I have been impatient
The pain always comes from within
Not moving an inch

Everything's about to break
Yeah every little step I take
Tell me did I lose control
Tell me did I lose control

And when everything's about to break
After every little step I take
Tell me did I lose control
Tell me did I lose control
And when everything's about to break

It feels like I get
Stepped on
I get caught
In my bad thoughts
Does it help to keep myself locked up?
I guess not
Trapped in this cycle
I lost my mind and
It's terrifying
Dying inside I start to get suicidal

But I can say that I don't think I made a mistake
Setting it straight
I will continue no matter the stakes
Sick of collateral damage, the fact of the matter remains
Why do I fight what I'm feeling
Create all these demons
I'm tired of playing these games ya
I'm counting the days

Everything's about to break
Yeah every little step I take
Tell me did I lose control
Tell me did I lose control

And when everything's about to break
After every little step I take
Tell me did I lose control
Tell me did I lose control

(Everything's about to break)
Stuck on repeat and
Still get defeated
It's messed up
Feel so mistreated
What is the secret to self-love?
My fear is feeding
The demons
They're seeking fresh blood
This fucking feeling is never getting the best of me

Best of me!

Why am I not alright?
Why am I so fucking blind?
Why can't I see that I must leave it all behind?

I'm ready to let it all go
No more complaining, I'm starting to grow ya
Burn all my bridges and bear to witness them glow up

Break!
Yeah every little step I take
Tell me did I lose control
Tell me did I lose control

And when everything's about to break
After every little step I take
Tell me did I lose control
Tell me did I lose control
And when everything's about to break