Lyrics Stuck - Gee $uade

I've been spitting these raps I feel like I'm trapped
I'm trynna get back to where I was at
My mind is a mess and I'm trying to confess
Get it off of my chest but I got nothing left
For the way that you act I feel attacked
I'm writing this track and I hope I don't crack
I've been sick and depressed but I gotta suppress
I've been breaking my neck over all of the stress

Yea
Focused on the pain that it brings
In the dark night let the birds sing
I've been sitting smoking nicotine
Hoping that it bring me closer to dreams
When I stay awake contemplate hate
In a space never what it seems
I just wanna say that your in my way
I don't wanna play won't you leave
Yeah it's been a couple years
I'm writing these rhymes and I hope that you hear
All the words that I speak and the pain I endear
Turn familiar tears into fuel for my fears
Now I've fallen deaf in my ears
I'm not speaking to clear why the fuck am I here
I've been searching for something I don't believes worth it
But now it's for certain I must disappear

Often I think of the day you'll be gone
The smell of your skin and how you had me drawn
The only thing I want is you on my arm
Yea I should probably start moving on
I had your attention all in the beginning
And lost it before I knew what to do with it
What hurts me the most is we never admit it
It took me a while to express what I'm feeling
It took you a minute to see who I was
And I'm sorry for all of the pain that I caused
All of the days that we sat in my car
Vulnerable talking bout all of our flaws
Cause I know it was hard I would never make light
I hated every time we would fight
You don't deserve that and neither do I
So I think it's better off we say goodbye