Lyrics Difficult - Gracie Abrams

My double vision
Is only amplifying everything he isn't
'Till I feel less attached and bored to death
But listen
It's no one's fault
It's just my terrible condition, hmmmm

And I've been thinking
If I move out this year I'll feel my parents slipping
Away and also I'm just scared of that commitment
I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing, hmmmm

Oh, I know spiralling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult?
Difficult
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult

To name this feeling
Would take a hundred thousand years
Some kind of grieving
But over what I've never had
So I've been speaking
To my therapist
I call her every weekend, hmmmm

I meant to tell you
How I've hated how we left things when it fell through
'Cause you were everything to me
Where did you run to?
Was it something that I said that coloured you blue? hmmmm

Oh, I know spiralling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult?
Difficult
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult
Difficult

Difficult, I
(I) Difficult
I've been drinking
And staying up too late reliving bad decisions
I thought eventually my ranting here would fix it
I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing, hmmm

Oh, I know spiralling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult?
Difficult
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult
Difficult

Oh, I know spiralling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult?
Difficult
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult
Difficult