gunsmoke

I've been trying to live right but that's been a long shot
Born with a hard head, grew up in them hard knocks
My daddy said you need to be a man, learn to deal with your own shit
And that was right before his heart stopped
So pardon I, take a second, my glass need to be topped off
Living life like a rockstar
I was down, living with fast women and cocaine
Burning hotter than propane and no fame

Preacher said he a bad man, he won't change

Fuck a sip from the bottle, he drank the whole thing
Colt .45 in the truck bed of this old thing
She the love of my life, she like an old flame
I'm so strained, my trigger finger just won't aim
But I be squeezing on her tight like we hold hands
I'm so drained on the highway in both lanes
I be swerving in and out, I'm like the Soul Train

I'm so right but so wrong
My problems keep coming at me, life just goes on
If y'all wanna deal with the pressure it takes to make a snowstorm
For so long, the show's about to roll on
I conversated with God, I tried to paint a facade
That I was living life like I could swallow my pride

But that was half the battle, I fell down, got back on the saddle

Maybe my heart's turning cold and my tears run dry
My soul is calloused, I've been playing with fire
Addicted to gun smoke, I know that I'm done for
I hate what I see when I open my eyes
Lord knows I am on my way
Heaven's close and I can feel it in my bones
And I pray that I don't go astray
The devil's close, I hear him knocking at my door
Knocking at my door

Man, I learned at an early age
Ain't nobody fixing my problems, I'm from the bottom
Wasn't given an option, we on this trip for the long run
Despite the sentence I've gotten
I'm intimate with my memories, I'm living obnoxious

My mama said I need to take a chill pill

Despite what this doctor prescribed me
I honestly pop it the moment the anxiety's climbing
I'm just trying to stop it
And my daddy said you gon' learn life and that's by my belt
I found peace inside my hell

And you're wondering why I don't seem to get along with people
It's kinda hard when I don't like myself
And lately I've been staring at the
Empty shell casings on the floorboard
Of that '83 in the front yard
To get it going, we gon' probably need a jumpstart

And once we do, there's a chance it won't run far
I've been trying to swallow my pride since sixteen
I try but I'm deprived from the fire in this dream
And pray that my sister finally decides today she gon' get clean
But it just seems

Maybe my heart's turning cold and my tears run dry
My soul is calloused, I've been playing with fire
Addicted to gun smoke, I know that I'm done for
I hate what I see when I open my eyes
Lord knows I am on my way

Heaven's close and I can feel it in my bones
And I pray that I don't go astray
The devil's close, I hear him knocking at my door

Lord knows I am on my way
Heaven's close and I can feel it in my bones
And I pray that I don't go astray
The devil's close, I hear him knocking at my door
Knocking at my door