Lyrics To Fall Asleep - Holding Absence

Bittersweet remedy, heal me
I've tried to be everything you need of me
I'm not holding my breath, I know that ruin merely rests
I can feel it pressed against my chest
Like a virus; I've tried to find us a way out of this hole
With my hands pressed against my nose
I'm trying to be holy, but I still don't feel whole
I'm trying to be holy, but I still don't feel whole
Can't you see that it's haunting me
Every night when I try to sleep? I'm so weak
Burdened by the epiphany
Misery's periphery won't let me be
The grass is always greener when you live in black and white
I try to close my eyes, imagine everything's alright
Honey like an arrow, sewn into a quiver
It's in my marrow, it's in my liver
You watch me wilt away like a flower without rain
There's nothing you can do, honey, please just look away
I am nailed to this cross, and I must carry it alone
I'd ask you to hold my hands, but they're worn to the bone
Can't you see that it's haunting me
Every night when I try to sleep? I'm so weak
Burdened by the epiphany
Misery's periphery won't let me be
Bittersweet remedy, leave me
Its shadow follows me
I try to fall asleep
Fall asleep
I try to fall asleep