Lyrics I Can't - I.Q

Yeah, I've been through a lot of trauma
I don't wanna be the one to put that on ya
I get an obsession when it comes to commas
But lately I've been counting sheep so I can be calmer
Yeah, I can't be who you want me to be
I can't sleep so I struggle to dream, yeah
I can't seem to find any peace
I can't think bout what I should've been, yeah
I can't believe I'm still fighting these things
I can't even break the curse around me
I can't leave cause I said that I'd be Here forever but I need someone to save me

You only stay so I don't go Looking at the memories like they're only photos
I became an afterthought, I keep riding solo Telling me you need me, I don't need no one
To blow smoke
On me, I lost you, you lost me
I need a bag but I wonder what the cost is Yeah, don't take it easy and be weighing
On my conscience
So I lay it all down
When you need somebody, I stick around Even when I ain't helping myself
I'm selfish but unselfish When it comes to you, be my weakness, yeah
Want you all for me, I can see us Being something but you don't see me
Like that, maybe I should fall back I said maybe I should fall back, yeah

Maybe it's the way that I was raised Causing all these problems for today
Driving wedges between you and me
When I came, I said I'm here to stay
Keep my word but it gets harder daily
Biggest fear in life is be alone
So lately I've been stressing when you ain't pick up the phone
Entertaining someone else while I'm here waiting If you were to do that, I would let nobody else in
Living while I'm dying If I said that I could live without you, I'd be lying
If somebody were to touch you, swear that I'd get violent
They say it's all about the timing so I put the time in
But I know I need a rider
Or somebody that could hold me down
All I'm asking is you try to know me now
I'm a stress case, I'm an asshole
All my rest days, I don't really fucking have those
All my worst days, you'll probably laugh more Self-deprecating humor, I'm building up my castle
Of lies, but I can look you in the eyes
Tell you that I love you, let you know I'll be fine

Hey, I'll tell you I'm okay Let you know that I just need some time away
But when I'm gone, I'll tell you I'm afraid Of knowing I'm replaceable, the time will fade
Yeah, I'll tell you I'm okay Let you know that I just need some time away
But when I'm gone, I'll tell you I'm afraid Of knowing I'm replaceable, the time will fade

I can't be who you want me to be I can't sleep so I struggle to dream, yeah
I can't seem to find any peace I can't think about what I should've been, yeah
I can't believe I'm still fighting these things I can't even break the curse around me
I can't leave, cause I said that I'd be Here forever, but I need someone to save me