Lyrics Angels, Pt. III - Ikilledmarlon

They say it's the things we love most that destroy us
I realize it takes ten times longer to
Put myself together than to fall apart
I'm trying
Thinking about my past, I often seem to question why
Am I forgiven as a sinner predestined to die
Past five years I've been searching for God, constant knocking
Walking in a righteous path, but always seem to be forgotten
And though I struggle hard, it holds conviction
I often wonder if my past even knows I'm missing
I stumble daily living lukewarm
I need to be dependent like an infant when it's first born
Love or war, I never know which one I'm in
Committed to a hardened love, my enemies are close friends
But still I'm treated like a door matt
Lost within this maze with no direction like a lab rat
True fact
I'm domineering myself, overbearing myself, by engineering myself
No help
So do you blame me that I'm seeking rest?
Looking for an answered prayer, hopefully before my death
Random thought, I made it past twenty-five
Hard to stay alive when you survive blind since Christ revived
If I should die, may I die like who I crucify
With no regrets, abundant love, and no doubts to question why
Cause Lord knows I came a long way
(A long way)
But still I got a lot to go
(A lot to go)
Looking for angels when the sky falls
(Sky falls)
Why gain the world just to lose your soul?
I mask emotions like a robbery
Cause when it comes to matters of the heart, women clog arteries
Quoted by Logic, I'm a product of the same demise
I know the serpent bites, but I still I live within her eyes
Foolish
Passion burning like a candle
It's hard to cry when in your heart, you never said goodbye
Rewind the happiness like life is on cassette
So I can be a fool again with friends I wish I'd never met
(*chuckle*)
My last girl could've been my last
Now she's just a past girl, living in the past
Troubled waters, drowning in regrets
While I meditate forgetful moments that I can't forget
See...
The pain fades
But the memories remain
Bounded by these chains
It's like I'm living as a slave
Feeling so ashamed
Like David dwelling in the cave
But the truth, it still remains
Only by change will I maintain
I can't forget the day she up and left
Drowning out these demons, but it seems they always hold their breath
They say the vent is like a hopeless sign of weakness
So I guess that's why I desperately need Jesus
Cause Lord knows I came a long way
(A long way)
But still I got a lot to go
(A lot to go)
Looking for angels when the sky falls
(Sky falls)
Why gain the world just to lose your soul?