Reason to Be

I'm barely alive, living in black and white
No colors dare creep in
They know the hell I live in
All joy is set aside, I rarely ever smile
If I do it may be fake
I guess it's just the chance you take

But you see through my misery
If not for you I wouldn't ever have a reason to be

I'm crying inside, my hope has all but died
Punished for all my sins
When will the healing begin
I'm marking time, can't get beyond my crime
Everyone says, "let him burn."
I guess you'll have to wait your turn

But you have forgiven me
If not for you I wouldn't ever have a reason to be

It's 'bout time you know that I cannot go
On with my life
With this hanging over my head
You're deserving of more than a murderer
Who's been biting hands before he's been fed

I'm barely alive and nearly forty-five
No feeling 'neath my skin
This is the shell I live in
I'm shut inside by those who run and hide
Tie me down with guilt and shame
I guess maybe you feel the same

But you still have faith in me
If not for you I wouldn't ever have a reason to be
But you have forgiven me
If not for you I wouldn't ever have a reason to be
But you see through my misery
If not for you I wouldn't ever have a reason to be