Lyrics In Retrospect - Ivory Rasmus

I'll tell you all my lies
Want me living right
But I cant do that
Everybody's tried
Since my sister died nothing's working
I take all my pills
You give me my thrills
But I cant change
Drugs just hide the pain
Why's it all in vein?

I wont seek your love
Too ready to run
Beat you to the exit like it's fun
What did I just do?
It all fell through
Ate a loaded gun
Havent seen the sun in days since you
Said I never loved you

You'd understand why you should go
If you know my plans to die
I'd rather leave you behind less traumatized
I'm sorry for that sacrifice

No one understands
If they do they'll tell
Then I'm committed
Send my cry for help
Nothing makes me well
It just gives munitions
Life's a living hell
I dont want to pull you through these conditions
Let me right my wrongs
Make a couple songs
Maybe I'll feel different

I need to fight my past
Need to find the reason that I'm so distant
I grew up abused
I was always used by people ID call friend
I cant find the bounds
We wont make it now
Im too far down

Please forgive me
No pity
You dont know that you need this space
Oh, im just keeping you safe
Please don't forgive me
That's just litany
And you dont need that
No, you dont need that