Lyrics 19 - Jacob How?

(Plotting, Plotting)
Plotting album three at the age of nineteen
I've grown up so much my first LP
Questions inside of me
They constantly fighting me
Depression in my head too long
I'm bout to charge a fee
Get closure as fast as you can
Less questions make you less clouded
The water always cycles
No assuring a shore to keep you grounded
A penny for your thought
Wish I had more sense and had more fountains
I'm not getting old, I'm getting older without counting
I want a simple life, a happy life
Two plus kids, a loving wife
Until sliced by the reapers scythe
I'll aim for peace, I'm too precise
Realized the materials never really made me happy
Unless it was used on activities with my friends and my family
The jewelry means less, the more that it costs
Thrift shops and Depop, I'll never cop no Lacoste
I don't even wanna be the best musician in the world
I just wanna be the best me, with my besties and a girl

And in this one, I was like
"Alright, let me write down everything"
Oh you started with emotions
Just- Just, a lot them are just asking questions
A lot of the songs just have questions
And is just like
"How am I feeling today?"

How I've been?
Well I've been a mess, still depressed
Plus a heartbreak, felt like I reset
Basically I need a clean up on isle me
Still looking for that balance just to make an idle me
Writing my stories in journal, every emotion and feeling
Taking bike rides, I hate looking at the ceiling
Every Saturday you know I be with the grapes
My homies cool for heroes, they don't even cop no capes
I'm gonna miss them all in Lakeland whenever I start Chapter 2
Cause after I'm in college, I no longer got my crew
Signing up for therapy as soon as I get to campus
But right I'm just chilling at the park writing these verses
My goals for album three
Make my best work yet
My best tape ever, might even put on cassette
I'm not tryna blow up
My billboard don't care for the streams
The fact I'm making music is me achieving my dreams