Lyrics Letter To My Son - Jay Balbuena

It's been a while since I last saw you
Not one day goes by, that you don't run through my mind
Man I swear this ain't right
But your mother has some demons that she has to fight
I'm just waiting for the day or night where everything's fine
And it's getting hard without you son
I hope you don't forget our bond
I love you, and I'm counting all the days that are gone
That are wasted, I'm pacing, my mind then starts racing
A solution is the only thing that I'm really chasing
Cause I don't want to fight with your mom, it's gone too long
I wish that she could understand that this whole things wrong
I can't talk to yall, so now I'm just writing these songs
Sometimes I just want to say I'm done
I need to stay strong
Cause I'm doing this for you
One day we will look, at the problems in the view
And laugh about it too, that we couldn't fix it sooner
I hope your mommy heal, and your presence is what soothes her

I hope that when you see
What you mean to me
You recall all the memories
I hope one day you know
I never Let you go
Despise what she did to me

It's been months since I last saw you
I swear it's gets hard, cause things aren't getting easier
I swear that I have plead with her
But damn, a man can only beg for so long
I hope you don't forget about me, cause you're so young
And both your Sisters missing you, I never wanted This for you
I wish that we could go back, and prevent this from becoming true
Cause for you, I would do it there's no question
Cause ever since it happened I've been dealing with depression
And been dealing with this tension
That has grown so much, that it was hard for a prevention
And some day it will all be okay
Cause I know that time will come and wash away the hate
Doesn't matter what they say
Cause all I care about, making sure that we're all sane
And regardless of the Hate
Deep inside I know she feels the same
I love you son

I hope that when you see
What you mean to me
You recall all the memories
I hope one day you know
I never Let you go
Despise what she did to me
I hope that when you see
What you mean to me
You recall all the memories

Son i know you were too young
To understand the situation
Fighting with your mom over legal
Rights like visitation
Just so i could see the perfect smile
Of my creation
Damn you acted like me, danced just like me, had my gentle nature.
But the time shared was close to nothing
Never got to meet you cousins
Grandma loves, so does grandpa, so do I
But theres something missing
From the picture and son its you
Id give my life just to have back
Ive told some lies, but this is facts
Dont let anybody ever tell you that
I dont care, it wasnt that
Truly I cant take her back
After all the lies, and the wasted time
The love was gone, and i hated that
I walked away, tried to make some peace
With my wounded soul
But Eli know, if i didnt say it
Or didnt show it
Im sorry buddy
I love you son

So I hope that when you see
What you mean to me
You recall all the memories
I hope one day you know
I never Let you go
Despise what she did to me
So I hope that when you see
What you mean to me
You recall all the memories
I hope one day you know
I never Let you go
Despise what she did to me

I hope that when you see
What you mean to me
You recall all the memories