Lyrics Not Easy - Jaylen

Going through a lot of things, ya know
It's, it's a part of life
BL, what the hell
And over time, I learned that pain gone be with you forever
You just gotta sit with it and just keep it pushing (On some real nigga shit)
Darkside made this

Shit, how I see it
How I'm feeling, shit
Ain't no way I can escape it
I just gotta embrace it
Ain't nothing I can do but take it, ya know
Yeah

Best believe it's not as easy
As it seems, I finally seen it
I been scarred, my heart is bleeding
The world is getting colder, I'm anemic
Best believe it's not as easy
As it seems, I finally seen it
I been scarred, my heart is bleeding
The world is getting colder, I'm anemic

Bitch, I been a soldier, boy
I'm like what's hannenin'
We not even 21, but we turned into savages
Kids be feeling sour bout a nigga, ain't no patching it
I had to pull the knife out my back, double back and stab a bitch
In the studio recording when I'm at my happiest
Love my girl to death, I swear she bring me so much happiness
She the only person that I can see myself happy with
Nigga pull up acting, up that ratchet
Imma clap a bitch
I'm forever black hearted
I can't lie, I came a long way from where I started
Surgery was done up on my body, I was heartless
I came from that water, I was swimming where sharks is
I be careful not to show them where my heart is
I slept on the floor inside them Walnut apartments
Whenever you round' me, just be careful how you talking
Make the wrong move and you gone make yourself a target
I took too many losses
Came from that rain, now I need to dry
I can see my mama pain, looking in her eyes
I don't wanna see no tears falling down her eyes
Mama don't you cry, it'll be alright
I been fighting demons all my life
Got too many things weighing on my mind
My oh my
Eye eye eye, yeah

I'm forever black hearted
Man, for real, like (I can't lie, I came a long way from where I started)
I came a long ass way, bruh (Surgery was done up on my body, I was heartless)
I was at the bottom of the bottom for real, bruh, I started off with nothing (I came from that water, I was swimming where sharks is)
I ain't have no jewelry (I be careful not to show them where my heart is)
I ain't have no set of equipment, I had nothing, mane (I slept on the floor up in them Walnut apartments)
Look where I'm at now (Whenever you round' me, just be careful how you talking)
It took through a lot of pain to get here though (Make the wrong move and you gone make yourself a target)
Believe that, yeah (I took too many losses)

Best believe it's not as easy
As it seems, I finally seen it
I been scarred, my heart is bleeding
The world getting colder, I'm anemic
Best believe it's not as easy
As it seems, I finally seen it
I been scarred, my heart is bleeding
The world getting colder, I'm anemic

Shit, my heart faded to black way before you even knew my name
Like, this shit been part of me, ya heard me
And the crazy thing about it is
You ain't seen nothing yet
The Black Hearted KiDD