Lyrics Red Converse - Jedikiah

Hurting
Been awake all night
I'm still learning
How to make things right
I keep making the same mistakes
I made yesterday
I keep hurting myself
In the same way

Yo, I'm still recovering from that accident
Young nigga going through it, nobody knows how bad it is
And if I told you bout it you don't know the half of it
Been living in my head, I'm fighting to get out of it
I'm a grown man now, so I'm digging a bit deeper
I'm my own man now, so fuck following a leader
God gave me a voice to be a speaker
If I didn't rap I probably would've been a preacher, or even a teacher
Even if it's for 5 kids
I'd Teach them how to skip making the same mistakes I did
Look in my face, you'll see pain behind my eyelid's
Searching for a place to call home, it's not where I live
Cause home is where the heart is and my heart feels empty
I think the hardest part is that one day you're gonna forget me
I was troubled when I was young, and for that people resent me
Treat other's how you wanna be treated, my life is a blessing
I treat everyone with respect, I'm gon' make them respect me

Hurting
Been awake all night
I'm still learning
How to make things right
I keep making the same mistakes
I made yesterday
I keep hurting myself
In the same way

5 pm, and I just showered up
My friend is moving to downtown just got done packing up
Got a text saying that we need help with moving stuff
And his roomate was headed here to come scoop me up
Started eating spaghetti with my family in the dining room
Said I'm finna dip cause homie - was sliding soon
Hugs & kisses "goodbye" not knowing what the ride would do
But we hit the freeway playing songs we was vibing too
Got lost in our conversation and missed an exit
Siri said to turn around, Mac Miller interjected
Now we on the separate side driving different direction
Behind a lifted pick up truck, traffic hour in texas
Out of no-where the truck swerves all the way from right to the left
Almost drove of us off the bridge, but homie knows how to whip
I lock eyes with a lady standing in the road, and she was stiff
But she's screaming, then her head came through the windshield
Her body flipped
We pull over and I'm yelling to my homie "call 911"
Look to my right see another body what have we done
Turnt out she was a drunk driver, and she just killed someone
Tried to flea the scene, got hit by us as soon as she tried to run
Didn't shed a tear til I got home, and my sister hugged me
Couldn't sleep at night I smoked so much. bro, my world was crumbling
Led me to question God, and start wondering do he love me
She killed somebody and lost her life over fucking bubbly

Hurting
Been awake all night
I'm still learning
How to make things right
I keep making the same mistakes
I made yesterday
I keep hurting myself
In the same way