Lyrics Spiral - Jnixx

I think I'm falling down a spiral
Don't know why I'm always feeling so awful
I been struggling to face these trials
I'm too caught up in tryna ball like Michael
Yeah I feel like I been spiraling down
And I think I've lost all feeling now
Yeah I might cock this pistol blaow
I could really use some healing now

On my two feet I walk up back to my pad
Cuz I ain't tryna talk I'll keep it real I'm feeling bad
And my bipolar thoughts have really got me actin mad
One minute I'm so glad next thing you know I'm really sad
And I don't want nobody close to me
Cuz for me that's how it's spose to be
I might jump off on the count of three
I'd just love to finally be free
Cuz this life for me ain't really working out
My peers are filled with doubt, I wanna scream and shout, yeah
They don't care what I be rappin bout, what's coming out my mouth
It's all about the clout, damn

I think I'm falling down a spiral
Don't know why I'm always feeling so awful
I been struggling to face these trials
I'm too caught up in tryna ball like Michael
Yeah I feel like I been spiraling down
And I think I've lost all feeling now
Yeah I might cock this pistol blaow
I could really use some healing now

I could really use some time away
I think I need some space, get myself back to pace
I'm really quite insane, and I'm okay with that
I lock myself inside my room and write my rhymes to rap, yeah
And I know I'm feeling dead inside
But keep it real I'm so afraid to die
Please don't mind me when I'm bout to cry
Cuz I hate it when you ask me why
Falling down a spiral now, I'm tryna make it viral now
But I just really don't know how, I wanna fill up all the crowds
Erase this stupid fucking frown, let me put on the fucking crown
Anxiety gon hold me back, until I've had enough of that

I think I'm falling down a spiral
Don't know why I'm always feeling so awful
I been struggling to face these trials
I'm too caught up in tryna ball like Michael
Yeah I feel like I been spiraling down
And I think I've lost all feeling now
Yeah I might cock this pistol blaow
I could really use some healing now