Lyrics Letter to My Father - Jonah Cruzz

This right here is a letter to my father
This right here is a letter to my father
Found it hard to hate cause what
Don't break you just make you stronger
This a letter to my father
Dear Father
Im shedding tears as I'm writing
Fighting my feelings while dealing with the demons inside me
Ain't obvious cause it hides in deep parts of my mind
The darker spots of my soul
Ill take you way back in time, See
When i was young I watch you preach from the pulpit
Though you spoke the truth comin out of you it was bullshit
Cause I know whats goin on behind the scenes
They think we livin good like we accustomed to the finer things
In actuality I shared one bed with four of my brothers
Wake up smellin like urine
Shit they done pissed in my covers
Cover my scent with cologne
Watched you fuck different women while you knew mama ain't home
Was only seven years old
Felt like a coward cause i didn't tell her
The fact that i seen it for myself didn't make it better
Wrote you these letters cause a nigga got issues and pain on his mind
And P.S. mother fucker yesterday I got signed
{This right here is a letter to my father
Found it hard to hate cause what
Don't break you just make you stronger.}
I remember being broke and we had no place to go
Only option we had was to stay with one of you hoes
Hurt my mama to know you fuckin with other women
But she put up with the nonsense
Just to provide for her children
Feelin like less of a woman
Now she done lost all her courage
All the dreams that she once had
All gone and their buried
Certain shit you would tell her
Like how she ain't shit without you
How shell never be nothin
Sometims i wish i done shot you, But i kept
Dreamin that one day i would make it big
Remove you frome the picture
And take of all your kids
Takin care of them bills you should a been payin
You was poppin them pills, addicted to medication
My heart breakin but I pray for you
Regret the times i had to watch my mama stay for you
Wrote you these letters cause a nigga got issues and pain on his mind
And PS mother fucker yesterday I got signed
{This right here is a letter to my father
Found it hard to hate cause what
Don't break you just make you stronger.}